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This was not the first or only related experience I've had; however, this was my first NDE.
When I was much younger, I passed out while getting blood drawn, and I basically thought I went to hell. I was afraid, alone, threatened, confused, lost, terrified, and wasn't sure what "I" meant. I wanted more than anything to just be able to understand what was happening. I was in darker than darkness and utterly terrified, though I didn't know of what, and it didn't matter. When I came to, I was so relieved to understand what I was seeing. I started balling. I told no one about that experience. That was over 10 years ago.
I firmly believe I experienced an NDE, yet the conditions leading up to it were quite different from the standard. I was a sophomore in college, enrolled in a very rigorous engineering program. My never-end drive to succeed academically drove me to exhaustion, and I really didn't have many friends. Additionally, I suffered from asthma that could make breathing difficult. I was pretty depressed! Friday night fun for me involved studying, and then lighting a candle to watch it burn out. (Although I'm smiling now as I type those pathetic lines, honestly that’s what I used to do!) Then, the most amazing event occurred in my life.
In 1999, I was rapidly spiraling out of control when all meaning and purpose had vanished. While riding a bike one evening, I was swept out to sea by a surging twenty-foot freak wave and had a close brush with death. My body began to shut down and the excruciating pain subsided. I suddenly became acutely aware of a loving presence close by.
My NDE occurred in February 2006. I was critically ill with a staph infection in my lungs and all sinus cavities. I also had another infection called C-dif. I had a high fever of 103, black sores in my mouth, poor breathing, and the worst headache pain in my life. I remember leaving my body before being admitted to the hospital looking down at the ambulance, health care workers, my husband and eight year old son at the time. Like a movie, my entire life scrolled by me all at once during this time. I remember saying "I am not ready to die yet" and returned to my body. Three days later while lying in a hospital bed, I felt and saw the presence of a beautiful angel in a dream with her arms raised and palms pressed together toward the heavens. I also felt myself dancing with her at that very moment, twirling, and leaping, even though my physical body had not left the bed. I felt totally at peace and filled with unconditional love. At that moment, I knew that I would be healed. I was also instructed to write at that very moment about the experience to share this message of love, light and peace to the world. This angel told me that I was free and that all would be well…that I, too, would help others heal.
I was driving on the Massachusetts Turnpike from western Massachusetts to Boston in a borrowed car. I was an inexperienced driver. I was accelerating in the left-hand lane up an incline to pass a school bus, when suddenly the bus pulled out in front of me. I reacted by slamming my foot on the brakes, and lost control of the car. In a frantic effort at regaining control, I grabbed the steering wheel and jerked it around, causing the car to swerve all over the highway. I could see drivers in other cars out of the corner of my eye looking concerned as they slowed to avoid me. I began to panic and realized I had lost control…that this was the end. My panic increased and suddenly left me entirely. My vision blacked out.
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