I believe I have experienced two NDEs. The first one was induced by DMT (Bufo experience in Mexico) and the second one was during a car accident in New Jersey. The two experiences happened within 5 months of each other. The first one was at the start of the New Year on January 4th 2024. The second was on May 11th 2024. 

I will describe my first perceived NDE that happened in January of 2024 first. I was on a trip with my friend in Mexico. We decided we wanted to experience Bufo with a spiritual guide in Bacalar. I did not do a lot of research or reading about Bufo/DMT prior to this experience. I was going at all of this with an open mind, and with the intention to connect more with "divine feminine energies."

We sat in meditation, overlooking the lagoon of the seven colors. We prayed to the four cardinal directions. Our spiritual guide assisted my friend in ceremony first and I went second. We each had very different experiences. When it was my turn to go, I was sitting on a blanket under a tree on a grassy knoll near the lagoon. I remember exhaling the medicine and watching the shaman walk away to get his musical instrument. I remember rolling back and everything going black. I was very scared.

I was falling backwards down a very dark "tunnel." It was the earth. I kept trying to resist gravity. I remember my body fighting. I remember not wanting to let go. I remember hitting the bottom of this "ditch." I had the sense of looking around trying to figure out how I was going to get out of the hole. Then I realized I was dead. There was no getting out.

So I surrendered and in an instant my whole body was enveloped in light. I didn't exist anymore. I was nowhere, but everywhere. It was just all light, pastel colors, vibration, loud humming coming from colors. So much love. The sound seemed very loud and consuming. There wasn't a lot of thinking going on but I just KNEW a lot, with greater access to this "anthology of cosmic knowledge."

As I was coming out of the experience, I found myself in the lagoon! (To my surprise, my friend told me at some point in the journey I crawled to the lagoon from where I was sitting!) I could feel the tiny fish swimming around my feet and my toes. The sensation was very heightened! I saw a little yellow pastel orb come off the lagoon and enter my body on the left side of my pelvis. Coming out of the experience I threw up twice, I knew it was a "part of me, an old story, old beliefs, timelines" that I had to let go of. I later found out from my friend who watched my experience that I immediately threw up twice in the beginning of the journey. (Even though I have no memory of throwing up the first time, I believe this to coincide with the part of my experience where I was falling!)

This experience in total could not have been more than 10-15 minutes! After this journey with Bufo, I became more connected to divine feminine energies, spirit, myself and my family. I had a greater appreciation for nature and felt like I could feel the grass breathing. Psychic abilities opened. A lot changed with my eating patterns, the biggest one being going from drinking my coffee black to taking it with milk. A lot more diary in general. A lot more fruit. A gray patch of hair grew out of nowhere (Mallen streak) and other hormonal changes. I have been an acupuncturist for 10 years. Shortly after this experience I decided I wanted to see fewer patients, have more time with loved ones, and move more into a teaching role and leading group gatherings. I found my purpose was changing as a practitioner... and then... 

May 11, 2024 (5 months later), I was driving home from having dinner with two friends in Hoboken, NJ. I was on the turnpike driving South. I remember looking at the clock; it was 11:44pm. I thought, "Oh, angel numbers!!" In my head I was doing the math and thought by 12:20ish I will be home! On a three-lane highway, I was in the right-hand lane. I don't remember any other cars being around me, yet suddenly a car was right in front of me! I swerved into the middle lane to avoid hitting the car, but there was a car in the middle lane, so I swerved back to the right and lost control of the car. I hit the guardrail head-on, going at least 60 miles an hour, propelling me in a 180 spin. The back of the car swung around and hit the guardrail on the back rear driver's side. It was all very disorienting. I remember thinking, “Whoa, I'm okay, that didn't hurt..."

At this point, I realized I was facing the wrong way, as oncoming traffic was heading towards me. I realized I was going to die. There was smoke coming from the hood. I was a sitting duck. I remember thinking I should abandon the car and run for it. I was under severe duress. I remember just wanting to go home. The thoughts that ran through my head were at lightning speed. I remember looking out the window and seeing this purplish/blue veil/cloud. I had a vision of a major car pile-up on the turnpike (caused by my car). I saw my parents being woken up hours later by the police at the door letting them know I was in an accident. I was very sad for my parents and brother.

Then, I could feel the presence of my good friend Walter (who died in 2007) and my mom's father (whom I've never met because he died in the 60s). I had a knowing that my grandfather was "holding back" the line of cars headed for me. Walt was closer to me. He told me to look down at the gear shift and restart the car. I somehow then managed to turn the car back on and get to the left-hand shoulder on the turnpike, just in time as the cars whizzed by!

I am so tremendously grateful to be alive! I think I remember declaring I didn't want to die. I think I remember asking for Walt's help! I walked away from that accident without a physical scratch, although I had a concussion. (I never hit my head!) The police officer told me I should have been dead!

My life has completely changed since. I had to take 2.5 months off from my acupuncture practice and even when I returned, I was only half time (if that.) I've had to seriously re-evaluate how I treat and care for myself. I have selflessly given myself to my patients for 10 years and I knew I needed to change things, but I guess spirit decided to speed that up for me! My purpose in this world is becoming clearer and clearer every day. I have always been in the healing arts, but I can sense the way I show up in the future will be very different. I love myself more than I ever have and will continue to work on that every day! Life has a much different meaning to me now, yet it's hard to capture in words. It's only been a few months. I know, as time goes on, this will all become so much more clear and I will fully land in my mission!

I walked away with two very big “ah-ha” download/channeled messages after these NDEs. One: "I have never not been held." Two: "On the other side of fear is pure ecstasy."